So I've just acquired a full list of the things I need to hand in as soon as I'm back at uni...
And I feel quite sick at the thought. Looks like as of tomorrow (or possibly even starting tonight…) I’ll be bashing out the end of an essay, a proposal, a storyboard, a journal which I haven’t even started and can remember no dates for as I wasn’t sure I had to do one (fuck my life!), a poster, a bio, a finished script, a script evaluation and the last couple of portfolio bits that I haven’t finished.
we need to know which bright eyes album we should lie on the floor and listen to when it’s 1am and our next doory neighbour is having sex. how are we to know which films we should watch about rejection, lost love and depression, and, consequently, which romcoms we should watch to…
LOL. Well, this certainly amused me. I would definitely like to look into writing this (regular) column in our uni newspaper. Do we even have a uni newspaper? It’s Leeds Met so it’s debatable… IDK.
As the lady selling perfume and lollypops in my local club sings, "you don't need a boyfriend, you just need a lollypop". I mean, yeah, she just wants to sell her lollypops but i tell you, sometimes a girl just needs a lollypop and a good film rather than a man. men always fuck things up. goodness me, the amount of bullshit they've put me through is unreal.
I swear one of these ladies exists in every town. Including in tiger tiger in Leeds and somewhere in Leicester although I can’t remember where…? Haha. I love her.
She’s right y’know, very very right. And I can’t imagine (mainly because you’re anon firstly aha!) but I can sympathise in some way at least!
The thing about it all is that I KNOW I don’t need someone. I’m just craving passion at the moment. I miss that. I think it might have something to do with being stuck in the hospital and conversations I’ve had recently and things. I think it’ll all be easier over summer (or even when I’m just with Ashley and the ladiessss at uni) because I’ve got passionate friendships - we’re completely mad together and we put the world to rights and have a good time too. That’s a good distraction from matters of the heart :) I just don’t have that. I mean I have Lucy at the end of the phone always and she has me, same with Ash, it’s just not the same when I have the rest of my time to think to myself aha.
I hate using the words slut/whore/slag/etc... BUT...
Those fucking girls that jump on the newly single bloke bandwagon really fucking piss me off.
Got this friend who’s literally just broken up with her fella, she’s devastated and some girl is already homing in on him like a piece of meat. He’s vulnerable at the mo too (not just my friend) so will probably take her up on any offer that she gives him. Obviously it takes two to tango but I don’t necessarily blame him for that - when you’re vulnerable you do just accept comfort from others. But those girls should fucking know better. If that was your ex boyfriend of 3 days you’d be absolutely distraught.
The song ‘Patience’ by Take That springs to mind.
Fucks sake I swear no one has any respect for anyone anymore! RAGEEEEE.
29 April - 5th May is Cystic Fibrosis Week (also known as CF week) in the UK. This week is used among the CF community (and all extended connections) to raise awareness and money for Cystic Fibrosis (the condition I have and which I’m currently in hospital for).
During the next week or so I’m probably gonna spam your dash with info about what I have, photos of things I have or do and might even make a video or two about a life in the day of your average teen/young adult CFer!
If you want to start making a difference, search CF Week 2012 online for details of how to donate. You can also click here to add a twibbon to your facebook or twitter pictures!
There’s this thing that always happens at sell out gigs. After the initial ticket buying rush where everyone is up at the crack of sparrows with about 4 different credit cards and all sources of ticket allocation accessed, there’s obviously the ebay and viagogo thing. I understand why people do that - I don’t think it’s necessarily right in terms of viagogo - they get allocated priority tickets but promoters?! I mean what the fuck is that? They should go to the general public first, if you ask me. But I get the ebay thing - if you KNOW it’s gonna go mental you might as well make some money out of it… it’s a profitable game if you know about release dates and who’s gonna sell big.
ANYWAY. Aside from this minor gripe, I have another serious issue with gigs. FRIENDS.
Ok so you’re going to a gig and you bought 4 tickets for it. You had no idea who you were taking at the time, but you bought 4 anyway. And then the gig creeps ever closer and you have absolutely no idea who you’re taking, so you ask EVERYONE and you usually end up with a fan and maybe a couple of people that just fancy a night out. THAT. I HATE THAT.
I hate that at sell out gigs you see so many ‘friends’ - people that go for the sake of using up a ticket, people who aren’t at all interested in the band. Fine, if you kinda like them and fancy seeing them go for it, but some people genuinely turn up with no interest and it angers me. What about all those fans that couldn’t go because you took up space for their ticket? I mean seriously, what the fuck is that all about?! Just sell your ticket?!
I’ve got 6 tickets to see The Happy Mondays and Inspiral Carpets on 19th May in Brixton. I would never ever buy 6 tickets unless I knew I was gonna be able to shift them, but they were a gift (one which I’m v grateful for!!). I just have a problem with who I’m taking! Might sell a couple of them - could do with the money. Depends though, don’t think it’s a sell out so they may not fetch anything. Soooo, I may just ask some randoms. AND THAT LADIES AND GENTS, is something I have far less of a problem with. If it’s NOT a sell out then you can take whoever, but when it is and Jenny from the block tags along with you to see Slayer or whatever… it’s just not right mate.
Yesterday's anon here, no delusion at all, just speaking the truth. It came from nowhere, I don't follow you and you don't follow me and we've likely never met. Definitely don't know each other but I just came across your blog and had to say what I thought. :) Hugs back.
Ahh! There are still nice people in the world, filled with integrity and the ability to be nice just because. For that, I salute you. And I thank you in large doses. And I love you a little bit. Please tell me who you are?!