Anonymous asked: you're not reaching for the stars. im pretty caring. in fact i tried to chat to you and show you some attention, see how you were and that. and i got quickly dismissed. maybe thats the issue.

Right you are…

Caring. Anyone can be caring. Actually proper giving a shit is the kinda avenue I’m heading towards. But if you were that/are that, awesome. 

Depends when you spoke to me. If it was a couple of months ago it was probably a lost cause as I wasn’t ready for anyone or anything, in any way almost. If it was very recently, I’m confused by what people have said to me - as well as loads of pity (annoying after a while…) a few people have said they’re interested but to be honest I’m pretty sure 1 isn’t going to do anything about it, another is in it for a pity shag, another hasn’t actually made his mind up and the other is the one I keep posting about who is lovely but I’m just not sure about it. You’d think I was making this shit up - actually, I wish I was! If you haven’t specifically told me and I’ve seemingly dismissed you then I’m really sorry, it’s just a bit much at the moment and playing games or expecting me to pick up on mixed messages just isn’t going to happen right now. I’d rather people were frank. If it wasn’t during either of those periods then I’m really sorry also… I’ve not actively dismissed anyone excluding contact with my ex boyfriend so…

I do have issues with intimacy as of late, as I repeatedly mention on this ‘ere blog. It’s hard letting people close to you when you really want it to work this time and all you’ve ever known is your polar opposites or complete heartbreaking wankers.