Note the 'For now' part of the original statement.
“Totally in love with the idea of this film, mainly because Jeremy Irvine is just so delectable, and I’m a 19 year old end stage CF patient waiting for lungs that I may never get. I would happily see out my days doing all the crazy things if there was someone magical beside me to do it all with. Can’t wait to see it.”
My youtube comment. Maybe that’ll stop people arguing about Kaya Scodelario and things that JUST DON’T MATTER.
It’s so annoying. Around me are people that can walk around without a care in the world, it may be a little cold, a little wet, they may be angry at the world or stressed or in a rush, but most people have a joyful look in their face. They want to be here, they have nothing stopping them.
I’m sitting on a chair outside h&m coughing my guts up and trying to breathe. That’s it, just breathe. And today for some reason, the little get well angel isn’t around and every step I take feels like a stabbing to the chest. Each breath I take is deep, the look on my face is serious, I can’t concentrate because I’m trying not to start dying in the middle of every shop we walk into. I’ve forgotten most of what I need to get and I can’t be bothered to remember, because I just want to get the essentials and go back to bed. I haven’t the energy to keep trailing. I also haven’t the time to stop.
It’s frustrating because I’m with Lucy, and I want to go around with her and get what she needs and catch up with her but I feel like I’m going to collapse. She keeps asking if I’m alright and I am, I’m just annoyed that simple things are now some kind of god awful chore. And I keep needing to stop or get a drink or what not and that must be annoying. I don’t want to worry her and I want to fully participate in this really quite simple shipping trip but I just… Can’t. And it annoys me that some of the people around me look like they’re about to throw a wobbly and what for? You have lungs that work and allow you to walk, you should be fucking grateful enough for that!